I thought I would write yesterday, but their were new episodes of Chuck online. I love this show. Chuck is hilarious. And hot. Good show.

Tonight we bought Sesame chicken from China Town wok and I made stir fry for dinner. Turned out quite good. Now if I can just remember what I put in it so I can repeat it in the future.

My dad is speaking in church tomorrow. Lately it's been quite the chore going to church. We even start later for the new year. I don't know. It just seems life is still at a stand still before I decide what to do with it. Tonight I saw a cheerleader from Cyprus at Smiths. She was a Senior when we were sophmores. Can't recall her name, but it made me think, "what is everyone else doing with their lives after high school?". Tony's post also brought on some deep thinking. Toni married and a gorgeous baby. Michelle almost done with school and out on her own. Joe a phlebotomist and out on his own. Tony out on his own, school, working. Moving on it seems. Why can't I?

Thursday it was our group's turn to clean the church. Same time as a young single adult pod(multi-stake) activity. Lots of my friends were there. Sis. Broadbent saw me when I came in and wanted me to go in. She tried like 5 times. Normally, I would have been early to an activity like that. Not now. It's like I'm done with all that crap. It's not even crap, just done is all. Tomorrow I will go to church. more sympathetic talks from people who are trying to help. It's okay people, I'm workin gon going back. Now back off. I have to get counseling first. Yay. My sister got depressed on her mission, they put her on meds. She said it was like her emotions were numb. How could feeling numb possibly get you out of feeling depressed? Shouldn't you feel the depression and get over it by overcoming the problem causing it? Maybe a counselor would know what I mean or how to help. I just can't help trying on my mission clothes, reading the spanish book of mormon, looking at the mission website. How could I go to school, work, move out if I may go back in a week, month, year?

I'm going to get the counselor's number tomorrow and call monday. I'm sick of this. Like it says on Toni's blog, "A journey of a thousand miles starts with one step". Just my step is ten feet tall and on the other side of a piranah infested lake of lava.

New topic.

It's late. I guess I'll run to bed now.

Here are some pictures of Erin in the MTC! She sounds like she is loving it and just taught her first lesson in spanish this week! Enjoy!!!

The "I LOVE ME" List

1. What do you absolutely love about your body?

My legs. They are always toned and sculpted even when I haven't been working out.

2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength?

When I went to the gym with my brother last. I couldn't fo the same amount of weight on arms, but when we did the leg press, I surpassed him on weight lifted and reps. And he's been working out for months!!!

3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be?

When I came home from the MTC. I'm hoping to be even braver and go back.

4. When did your self-control blow you away?

Last time I fasted. Two days. I didn't think I could do it. Being home 24/7 and full access to the fridge is hard!

5. What is your proudest moment ever?

Hmmmm....When I went to the temple. I knew I was worthy, and it was the best feeling ever. I want to be like that again!!!

6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful?

At church two weeks ago. New outfit, clear skin, hair turned out perfect. Even high heels!!!

7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals?

Because I am working my butt off for it!!

Come on, People. Let's get off the pity pot and be better because we deserve it! You really are better than you think you are.

Some of my favorite things

Where were these things when we were in elementary school, had to walk home = raw bloody chafed nose?

what chicka would not be able to survive without these lifesavers? They can make or break your hairstyle. No first aid kit should be without them! Oh, for you clueless males, these are booby pins. Commonly known for the annoying things found all over the house in corners and small spaces, mostly the floor.

I love swirly, flowery, abstract anything. This is what I doodle when I'm bored or on the phone

Calligraphy/Cursive. So feminine, flowy, fun to write, beautiful to look at. I have a binder of my favorite calligraphy samples. I could write it for a living. (if you paid me enough!)

Lane bryant has heard the answer to my prayers! (Guys:skip to the next one, you won't get this one) All my life I have had the trouble of finding jeans long enough that won't show my socks/ankles to the world. I got used to it. I'm 5'11", nothing I could change.

I always thought the models they must use for female jeans have retarded bodies. Retarded proportions, and just plain retarded. If I want a pair of jeans that fit my waist, they are HUGE in the butt, thighs and legs. If I want jeans that fit my legs and hips, I have to get a pair that I have to wear unzipped. Do they think someone with my size waist has huge fat legs? um, no. I've always had awesome fit toned legs



The jean gods finally gave Lane Bryant inspiration and have heard mine and many other women's cries for a custom fit jean without paying a gazillion dollars. They have three new fits for your body type. I have the "yellow/straight" body type. I LOVE THESE THINGS!!! they fit PeeeeeeeeeeRFECT!!! Lane Bryant, you have my undying loyalty till the end of time. (bows down worshipping)




Pink rubber gloves. No longer do I absolutely despise and detest doing dishes. While wearing these, I only only detest doing it. Protected hands from harsh chemicals and hot water. And they're pink. Righteous.

Sunflower. The flower of the gods. So gorgeous

Best. Voice. Ever.

Cheapest. Prices. Ever.


youtube would not exist without it.

My brothers got me addicted to Ranch sunflower seeds. I used to only be able to have one in my nouth at a time and crack it open. Now it's about 40 at once. Such a good flavor, AND they came from my favorite flower!

Memory Foam insoles. If you don't have these, GET THEM NOW. It's better than walking barefoot. Like getting a massage when you walk. love love love

Modern Day frank sinatra/dean martin/Nat king cole/Perry como all combined into one guys with his own unique sense of style. Being super hot helps too.

I'm a sucker for lists. I make a list for everything. To-do day list, List of favorite movies, list of what baby names I'll choose. You give me a list and I'll write it. No typing either. has to been hand written. I think I enherited this trait from my mom. She's worse tha I am. She keeps a binder of about 50 lists on completely random subjects. I think I'm drawn to the organization of it all, as well as writing. The calligraphy thing again.