Some times life hands you a lemon, other times it squeezes the juice in your eye

I feel like a stupid idiot right now.

I totally ditched you guys for new years and hate myself for it. Cam you believe my parents? the SECOND Tony left out of the driveway, they both said," Well, I didn't know Tony was here to give you a ride, why didn't you go with him?"

CAN YOU BELIVE THAT!?!?!? I WANT TO RIP MY HAIR OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I sat there on the phone begging them to let me go, and they kept saying it was unsafe to drive this late, with the drunks, in the dark, that far, and there is a storm coming on. And then they go and say I should have gone because Tony was here. AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I could shoot them both.

If it's any consolation,(however stupid it may sound) As soon as my mom said she didn't feel right about me going, I had a HUGE rush of something inside.(yes, that burning feeling in your bosom. ) that I shouldn't go. Maybe I would distract Tony while he was driving and we'd both crash and die, or maybe I would've said something that split up Toni and her man, or done something to ruin Michelle's and my friendship. whatever the reason, I had that feeling that I shouldn't go and I was sticking to it, I'm sorry. I've had experiences in the past where I regretted not following that gut feeling I had. Once again, I"M SO FREAKING SORRY I DIDN"T COME TONIGHT!! You have no idea how bad I feel right now. Send me hate mail, blackmail me, egg my house, do something so I won't feel so bad about not coming.

Tell ya what. instead of egging my house, I'll make it up to you guys somehow. I'll think of something. I promise. Trust me, I'm hitting myself right now because how mad you guys sounded on the phone.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Do you think I'd rather be at home with my parents on new years? think again. My siste is even at a party this year, so it's just me and my parents. I really did want to come. I swear. I wasn't just pulling one of my,"I don't feel like going so I'll think up an excuse" acts. I'm serious. Sorry guys.

Well, since I haven't updated for a while I'll fill you in on my life the past two weeks. I doubt they are anything exciting compared to Toni and her engagement(CONGRATS!!!!!! ) but I'll try.

I've been working everyday except holidays and been busy with work work work. I guess I'm still not in the adult pattern of working normally. I will one of these days. I'm still just slowly slipping into adult-hood. Anyway, the job is going good. I should be going to SLCC part time in January if all turns out well, which it should. And I'll most likely be taking voice lessons in January through June to keep me even more busy, but it's been something I've wanted to do for a while.
Lets see.....what else. Oh, my cat threw up twice this morning at 4am and 5 am. So much for sleeping in on saturdays.

Oh, I'll fill you on Christmas stuff real quick. I got paid the day before christmas eve, so I was in a mad rush for the stores after work to get presents. I still have four more presents to get and give. I'll probably do that monday on my day off. thank goodness for fridays. I got a lovely bunch of stir fry stuff to add to my collection. lots of utensils, foodstuff, books, and a totally awsome chopstick and place setting set. very oriental looking. I got many many cool books: 2 cookbooks, 3 churchbooks, a yoga book and an awsome scrapbook book from Shell that is being overused already. My mom went a little crazy with my litle collection of tea things. I got teapot stickers, teapot iron-on transfers, a teapot ornament, teapot cards, teapot dishcloth, and lots and lots of tea, and a tea tin. I'm set for life with tea.
My mom also went nunts on my liking for scrapbooking. I finally got a 12x12 scrapbook. leather too. lots of other little things for scrapboooking too. One of my fav gifts was an L.L.Bean Extra Large aloha teal embroidered duffel bag. I can fit in this bag people! IT'S HUIGE! And of course the usual hot cheetos and gushers. ahh yes. you're all wondering what garlic things I recieved aren't you?
Actually you're probably thinking," what is with this sick obsession with garlic this girl has?" Well, I'll show you at the end of the blog with some pics. And I'll add some other Christmas ones too.